Well...yesterday was my sweet angel's birthday. She would have been 21! I miss her so much and today it hurts. It was a wonderful day yesterday. I spent it at the temple. It is the closest place to heaven. I stayed there all day looking for some "sign" that she was with me but all I felt was peace. You would think that would be enough. I wish I had more faith. I wish I could be content in just knowing that she is happy and busy helping our family on the other side. I believe that she is but I want to know! I am starting to resent those common stories we hear about people seeing angels and visions of them and stuff. I know it is wrong but I want to see her again! ....
Alright.... this is a little depressing but I actually had a great day yesterday. My other sweet sister and her husband watched all our kids. I am so thankful for time alone. It helps me regroup and figure out where I am going and what I am doing to get there. But on the other hand I am thankful for the full life that I live to keep me distracted from my "time alone." Sometimes it is too painful. Thanks for listening to my ramblings....who ever you are.....
I can't even imagine how much you must miss your sister. I hope that you are doing better. I am sure she is watching over all of you!
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